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Album Cut: "Would You Die For...?"
Band: My Beautiful Secret
Label: Independent
EP: My Beautiful Secret (Self-Titled)

I thought of giving away the secret by tossing out a few of the lyrics for you, the would-be listener, to chew on as an appetizer. But after some serious cogitation, I opted to have you experience the song in all of its fullness for yourself. You can't reflect on the lyrics. You can't listen to the song. You have to experience it. It is absolutely obligatory.

I'm thinking of trading my Rorschach test (known in lay terms as the Inkblot test) for this projective instrument. The music of My Beautiful Secret, exemplified and succinctly summarized in this cathartic classic of the future, is, in my estimation, the auditory version of the visual psychological projective test. The band is My Beautiful Secret. The song is "Would You Die For...?" The band is to die for. The song is to die for. So what might prevent a would-be listener from taking the song for a test spin? Fear! Clear and simple. Fear of what, you ask? Fear of the mirror. What mirror? Take a look. The song is the mirror. It will reflect the most vulnerable parts of your innermost being. It will unravel the deepest, darkest dimension of your unconscious.

Although I feel like I'm at a loss for words, I believe that I can most adequately describe the song by borrowing from the Spotlight Metaphor. The Spotlight Metaphor is a literary tool used by cognitive psychologists to depict the manner in which the psyche engages the conscious mind in the process of selective attention. To draw from a musical metaphor, the Spotlight Metaphor is the dance mix to Plato's famous Allegory of the Cave; the Apostle Paul's confrontation with a blinding light on the road to Damascus; and Manfred Mann's 70s rock classic, "Blinded by the Light." The Spotlight Metaphor depicts the manner in which conscious awareness casts a light in the midst of perceptual darkness in order to illuminate salient aspects of human experience.

If you have been enveloped in the type of intense darkness that the caveman in Plato's allegory experienced prior to his blinding exposure to the light, open your eyes and ears slowly as you expose them to the light of "Would You Die For...?" Otherwise, you will become instantly, if temporarily, blind, deaf and dumb--not to mention numb.

If the intensity of the light is too much on the studio version of the song, beware, on an even more vigilant level, of the live version. Even in its unplugged state (the one I was rendered captive to and spellbound by in the intimate environment of a coffee and tea house called Chatte) the raw emotion, the poignancy and the incendiary urgency of the song could drive you to the brink of insanity. My guitar case served as the drum kit, in this case, an object of Mitch Pathe's deft delivery and unbridled passion.

I swear I will never sell it, not even to the highest bidder. Brian Armer's unmatched vocal intensity, his palpably tortured visage, and his deeply personal delivery, grounded by the grit of his grueling guitar allies led me into a fierce battle with enemy forces within. It reminded me of that biblical Pauline passage that suggests that "we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers of darkness..." The song, whether live, live "unplugged," or studio-streamlined, will invariably bring you face to face with your own personal demons. Don't run. Don't erect any of those less-than-effective defense mechanisms Freud introduced. You really have no place to hide. I assure you that as scary as it may seem, if you stay with the song, the song will exorcise those same demons with the spiritual driving force of a thousand angels. The creative confluence of these elements-the begging for redemption; the earnest yearning for the blood of a sacrificial lamb; the sheer exhaustion that comes with giving until it hurts, it bleeds and it nearly kills; will drive you to your knees. If you surrender to the song, and to the salvation it more than hints at, it may save you a trip to the psychologist's office. If someone is willing to die in place of a soul so deeply afflicted as the one depicted in this song, the least I could do is to be willing to lose a little business.

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By psychologist Dr. Bruce L. Thiessen, a.k.a. Dr. B.L.T., The Rock Doc


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